So my first Crossfit Open experience didn't go as planned. For starters, I woke up late and in a shocking frame of mind and was convinced i was not going to go. I was sicker than the day before, frustrated and extremely nervous. No coffee in the house and just felt super unprepared.
'Seriously, Shaylie just do it' is all i kept going over in my head. Jordan (Fiance) had to drive. I just couldn't. Off we go to Mode for 17.1. Road works, no parking, cars everywhere! GAHHHH! come on. This was all adding to my anxiety. I felt ridiculous for having such trivial worries.
Finally got in and started to warm up and stretch. I made sure i spoke to a few familiar faces which eased my anxiety a lot. Knowing it was not just me and we were all in this together. The vibe at Mode was amazing, everyone is so supportive of each other and there was so much positivity and encouragement. I went in thinking i was going to do this WOD RX'd (as prescribed) but in the end my confidence just was not there. There was not a HUGE difference in the RX'd vs Scaled but i decided to scale anyway. So glad i did. I died in the ass just after the 2nd round. I couldn't breath through my nose. Vomit was literally just sitting in my throat and i just tried to keep moving. I could hear my judge quietly encouraging me, just one move at a time. He has no idea, but he helped me so much. I dont even think i got to thank him in the end as i was not sure if i was living or breathing. HAHA ok i am exaggerating.
For those playing at home the 17.1 workout was
10 DB snatch, 15 Burpee Box Jump Over
20 DB Snatch, 15 Burpee Box Jump Over
30 DB Snatch, 15 Burpee Box Jump Over
40 DB Snatch, 15 Burpee Box Jump Over
50 DB Snatch, 15 Burpee Box Jump Over
Box jumps to me are terrifying. I hate them. All i picture is landing on my face or shins (which i have done). The mental game that comes with box jumps is a workout in itself. But off i went and just plotted away one after another. The DB snatches were good for me. I love them. I feel strong doing them and i felt bad ass doing them in this WOD. Its a bummer to say that i did not get the result and time i would have liked at the end. BUT the fact that i went and did it anyway it HUGE for me. Letting go of fears of being in a crowd and having people watch and judge what i am doing sends me into a sweat. But turns out, when with people who are like minded and all in the same boat, its not so bad. WHO KNEW!
I am not going to deny that there were some tears at the end, i was not sure if it was from complete exhaustion, disappointment, a bit of both. But some love and care from Jordan and some words i needed to hear was enough for me to get some perspective that what i did was pretty awesome, and i am pretty awesome and all in all i have come a long way from where i had started.
There is still 4 more WODS to go, so stay tuned and i will keep you all updated.